CIATB Chapter 170 At this moment, Lu Chenyuan was already completely consumed by boundless pain.
Chapter 170 At this moment, Lu Chenyuan was already completely consumed by boundless pain.
At this moment, Lu Chenyuan was already completely consumed by boundless pain.
Su Wan's heart-wrenching screams were like looking through a thick layer of cotton, failing to penetrate his chaotic consciousness at all.
Or rather, he heard it, but didn't even have the courage to turn around, not even a fraction of it.
He was afraid, afraid that the familiar voice was just a hallucination born from his near collapse, afraid that if he turned around, he would still see that glaring scene from before.
She and Lu Yuanfeng stood side by side in the rain, their posture intimate, as if he were the unwanted intruder.
If that were the case, he really couldn't guarantee that he could control the surging violence in his bones and do something irreversible and foolish that would hurt her and ruin himself.
A splitting headache spread wildly along his temples, as if countless steel needles were stabbing his nerves.
My blood was boiling, burning hot like it was on fire.
The pent-up resentment, anger, jealousy, and despair in his chest swirled around him, threatening to burst his chest apart.
An extreme savagery surged through his limbs and bones, clamoring to break free of its restraints.
He wanted to rush back, knock Lu Yuanfeng to the ground, and tear that fake smile off his face.
Then he pulled her close, forcefully tucking her into his arms, possessively taking her, listening to her cry out in pain in his embrace, watching her beg for mercy, and refusing to stop even when he had exhausted all his strength.
He wanted to ask her why she was the one who rushed at him without warning, crashing into his heart that had been dormant for so many years, causing him to lose his composure, yet not giving him even the slightest chance to react.
He wanted to ask her why, when he was completely in love, treating her as the only light in the darkness, and cherishing her with all his might, she would use such a cruel method to slowly torture his heart and push him into an abyss of no return.
He couldn't turn back, nor did he dare to.
The moment I turn around, any remaining rationality will be completely overwhelmed by the surging emotions.
He will lose control and become a madman he doesn't even recognize.
With the last shred of his reason, he stumbled into the car and slammed the door shut.
The force was so strong it almost shattered the car door, and it seemed to completely shut out all the pain and glare behind it.
His fingertips trembled as he gripped the steering wheel, his mind focused on only one thought.
Hurry up and leave this suffocating place as far away as possible.
Just as his fingertips were about to touch the ignition switch, ready to start the car and escape, the passenger door was pulled open with a "click".
Su Wan sat down, soaking wet. Cold rain dripped from her hair and clothes, leaving a dark stain on the chair.
Her gaze was fixed on Lu Chenyuan, her heart feeling as if it were being gripped tightly by an invisible hand.
The pain was so intense she could barely breathe.
Something was very wrong with him.
He exuded a deep-seated despondency mixed with a chilling ferocity.
His eyes were unfocused, and deep within them was a deathly gray, devoid of any light, as if his soul had been ripped away, leaving only an empty shell.
His hands gripped the steering wheel tightly, his knuckles turning bluish-white from the force.
His gaze was fixed on the gray, misty rain ahead, and he merely glanced at her with utter indifference.
There was no warmth or joy in those eyes, only an unyielding pain and alienation.
The next second, he turned back indifferently.
A bitter, desperate smile slowly rose from the corners of his mouth; the pain in that smile was more heart-wrenching than crying.
"Su Wan".
His voice was hoarse, as if it had been rubbed raw by sandpaper. Every word seemed to be squeezed out from between his teeth, with an almost imperceptible tremor, broken and powerless.
"You...get off."
It wasn't that he didn't want to see her, or that he didn't want to hear her say another word; on the contrary, he wanted to hold her more than anyone else and hear her say she liked him again.
But he was even more afraid that what she was about to say would be a poisoned blade, stabbing into his already wounded heart.
He was afraid that she would tell him herself that she had chosen Lu Yuanfeng, and that from now on, there was no possibility between them.
He didn't want to listen, and he didn't dare to listen.
I don't want to look at her, and I don't dare to look at her.
He feared that if he heard or saw something, his last shred of reason would completely collapse, and he would lose control and hurt her, which was the last thing he wanted to see.
Su Wan was stunned, her eagerness instantly replaced by astonishment.
She never expected that Lu Chenyuan would be so stubborn, refusing to give her even the slightest chance to explain.
She had just gotten into the car, hadn't even had time to dry herself off from the rain, and hadn't even had a chance to utter a complete sentence when he coldly interrupted her and shut her out.
"Let's go! Get off! Get off!"
Lu Chenyuan's voice suddenly rose, filled with suppressed rage.
Every word seemed to be venting the pain and struggle in his heart.
All he wanted to do at that moment was drive onto the overpass, onto the empty highway, floor the gas pedal, and speed away like a madman.
Vent out all the grievances, anger, and despair in your heart, even if it means being shattered to pieces.
He couldn't let her stay in the car, absolutely not.
In the past, when he was unhappy, he would vent his emotions by speeding, but he had only experienced such out-of-control moments twice in his life.
One time, due to his misjudgment, his teammate was seriously injured and suffered a lifelong disability, a pain he could never heal.
On another occasion, she had the most intense argument with her father because of a disagreement at work, and was deeply hurt by his harsh words.
Now, the violent tendencies in his bones have completely broken free from the shackles of reason, growing and spreading wildly. No matter what Su Wan says or does, she can no longer shake his mind, which is on the verge of collapse.
The inner demon has already taken shape, like a wild beast out of control; only by completely unleashing its power will it stop roaring.
"get off!"
He roared again, his voice now trembling with sobs.
His eyes were instantly filled with tears, and the corners of his scarlet eyes had a sickly red tinge.
Tears streamed down her cheeks, mingling with the undried raindrops on her face, making it impossible to distinguish between rain and tears.
He was about to lose control; she was right beside him, within reach.
The familiar scent lingered around his nose, making him desperately want to get closer, to hold her tightly in his hands and never let go again.
"Lu Chenyuan..."
Su Wan was completely stunned. Looking at him, so fragile yet violent, with his reddened eyes and despairing gaze, she felt no fear or disgust whatsoever, only boundless heartache.
The heartache overwhelmed her like a tidal wave, a dense, overwhelming pain that made it almost impossible for her to breathe.
She took a deep breath, suppressing the trembling in her heart, and looked at him intently.
She spoke clearly and firmly, each word carrying an unprecedented seriousness and urgency.
"I like you."
She thought that as long as she said those words, Lu Chenyuan would pull himself out of his violent emotions.
They would be overjoyed, and they would come to their senses, even if it was just regaining a little composure.
But to her utter surprise, upon hearing these words, Lu Chenyuan's depression not only did not ease in the slightest, but instead he became even more frantic.
The despair and violence in his eyes were intertwined, as if they were about to devour him.
He slowly turned his head, his gaze fixed on her face, and then subconsciously glanced at Lu Yuanfeng, who was still standing quietly in the rain not far away.
A crazy and bitter smile suddenly appeared on his lips, a smile full of mockery and despair.
"What's wrong?"
His voice was so hoarse it was almost unrecognizable, filled with self-mockery and disbelief.
Every word seemed to be tempered with ice.
"Pity me? Give me charity? Did they see I was upset and were afraid something might happen to me, so they specially got in the car to comfort me and cheer me up?"
"Once I calm down, once I'm no longer going crazy, you'll still... abandon me without hesitation and turn back to Lu Yuanfeng, won't you?"